The Flick of Destiny

There’s fate and destiny, but I don’t believe in chance. Destiny is something I believe in strongly – that we are destined to travel a journey that will throw us around in every direction – we are destined to try everything. I believe that everything has a natural order, but I don’t believe it should be followed. Everyone has a journey, but getting to your destination can be straight forward and you can run in a straight line, but how boring would that be? I’d say boring as heaven! Yes, I do mean heaven – there’s not much to do up there as how can it be as boring as hell, when everyday you’d be whipped and raped by demons? Okay back to not believing in chance and having a destiny; even though I writing and appear to be contradicting myself, so let’s start again in another way.

Do something random and see where it takes you, you will be surprised of the outcome. I love to be random as its amazing the things that happen. The people you meet, the events that happen and the things you see or hear really do make you smile. Random ranting is my favourite thing to do so either stop reading now if you don’t want to be confused. I generally chat shit, but that’s the fun bit! So chance, doesn’t really exist in my books or my story! I don’t believe things happen by chance, I believe if you are destined to do or meet someone then it will happen. You can’t say it was by chance that I met someone; except it as the fates where shining down on you. It’s all about karma really. I haven’t a clue what I’m talking about – I’m not even pissed, my head is just in a place of something – I think it’s the tramadol and I’m knackered; surprising really since I’ve had about ten red bull – Buzzing on the caffeine.

Well I went to a friend’s party and met a guy who works for Channel 4 or something like that and something to do with advertising. I found that amazing as that is the kind of job I would love to get into, but just had no luck! My destiny chose me a new path to follow, kinda breaking the rules to let me have fun; this is how it led me there: Finished a degree - can’t find a job - took on a photography course - playing with camera - decided to get photos printed off - waited in line - met Jo - Jo invited me to party - thought what the hell I’ll go even though I won’t know anyone - went to party - introduced to cute guy - talked to all night - found him really interesting - told him about my sketches and stories - said I should send them to people - said I’ll add him on fcbk - when he comes up again hopefully go out for a drink - added on fcbk - hope I got the right guy! I love meeting new people, really inspires me to be creative and I use every experience of meeting people in my writing. It helps me create characters and just basically understand cultures. I kinda liked him to. Long time since I’ve met someone who I can talk to for hours and not lose interest or things to talk about.

I believe... okay I’m saying that too much, but honestly I believe you should at least do something random once a week to keep your life exciting; being boring all the time is no good. Keep life exciting as you never know where it will lead you or take you.

You’re So Gay! I Know I Am, That’s Because I Like Men!

OMG! The kids of today; you really do just want to throttle them when they come out with statements such as: that’s so gay or don’t be such a gay or my writing is so gay or... actually I’ll stop before I scream. Why is everything so gay? Where did this come from that the word “bad” or “strange” was suddenly swapped for “GAY”. If you look up gay in a dictionary you will find these meanings:

• Having or showing a merry, lively mood: gay spirits; gay music.
• Bright or showy: gay colors; gay ornaments.
• Given to or abounding in social or other pleasures: a gay social season.
• Licentious; dissipated; wanton: The baron is a gay old rogue with an eye for the ladies.
• Homosexual.
• Of, indicating, or supporting homosexual interests or issues: a gay organization.

Synonyms

1. Gleeful, jovial, glad, joyous, happy, cheerful, sprightly, blithe, airy, light-hearted; vivacious, frolicsome, sportive, hilarious. Gay, jolly, joyful, merry describe a happy or light-hearted mood. Gay suggests a lightness of heart or liveliness of mood that is openly manifested: when hearts were young and gay. Jolly indicates a good-humoured, natural, expansive gaiety of mood or disposition: a jolly crowd at a party. Joyful – suggests gladness, happiness, and rejoicing: joyful over the good news. Merry is often interchangeable with gay: a merry disposition; a merry party; it suggests, even more than the latter, convivial animated enjoyment, brilliant.
[All found at http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/Gay]

So why on earth do these kids use it in a perverse tone? Being gay is not a bad or strange thing. Urban dictionary is a haven for those to make it out to be a big deal, if you’re interested why - http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=gay#

Every time I hear someone using gay in the wrong context it really does annoy me. Some people should think before they speak as sometimes it can come across offensive. Normally I would rant about the disrespectfulness of some people and how ignorant they are, but I basically just wanted to point out the true meaning of the word GAY!

Gettin’ My Flo to the Random Beat

We sit around thinking we have no social life and for some of us this is very true; but really we can have a social life whenever we fucking well like. Having a random night where you get off your arse and just go fit can have a ripple effect that no one can predict. If you never plan to go out or really don’t want to, you will be more surprised if you get off your arse and just do it. And when I say just do it, I ain’t stealing Nike’s slogan; I telling you that or really I’m ranting about the fact that I am as guilty as anyone for saying I have no social life. I don’t need my friends with me to have a good time; though they would help, but most live in Wales and the rest of them at home hardly speak to me, are working or are already off out with their friends. At this moment in time, I stuck in rut cause I have no money or not as much as I’d like to be able to go out every week – I remember years ago when I worked for a living and my social life was included with my work – working in a pub, hotel or restaurant was my fun night out. But now a fun night out for me consists of a couple of bottles of cider, sat in bed watching Glee or Smallville or maybe a film!



Music is what keeps me going and keeps me smiling, if I didn’t have a steady beat to listen to, to take me away to some mystic dance floor then I’d be lost. Walking back from Asda early on I was listening to “Foot Loose” and just wanted to bust-a-move; though I’d be looked at funny and think there was something wrong with me. Everyone of us wants to break out of that hard shell we are trapped in and show people that we can have fun on our own. I actually feel like joining some salsa club, just so I can bust-a-move and not feel like an idiot – I want to have some fun in my own time, other than going to a club and feel like no one is looking. I always remember a card my sister bought me for my birthday and the inside said – “Dance like nobody is watching” – I agree with this quote because it’s true. Feel the music; shut your eyes and dance the night away – so what if you look like a dick dancing away, if it’s making you feel good, everyone else can go fuck themselves because if you’re having a good time nothing else matters. Everyone has got a flo and as long as there is a random beat thumbing away then you can get your groove on and dance till your feet are sore!